Hmmm...Perhaps Time for an Update?

I really do mean to write more. For myself, at the very least. I don't think any of my friends actually check this page (and I don't blame them, since I never write in here) but I could stand to get some things off my chest. I feel like I have a lot to say today but my thoughts are all jumbled from several days of low-grade sleep deprivation, so bear with me.

My last post was a year and a half ago. Wow. I remember writing it and thinking about how I was going to keep up with this blog and give myself an outlet. Silly me! 2009 didn't see me writing in here once! It's halfway through 2010 and I'm only now getting around to it. I can actually use the excuse that I've been extremely busy, but only since May of 2009. Work, school, and a new relationship have all kept me pretty well occupied. Before that, though? Maybe I was afraid to write out all that I thought I wanted to write out. Or maybe I was lazy. I did have a rather rough bout of writers block but that's never kept me down too terribly long.

Anyways...an update? Perhaps? In December of 2008, I wrote:

If all goes according to plan, I will not be writing a miserable, sad-sack entry this time next year. If all things work out, this time next year I will be content with my progress for 2009. I will have finished my first semester at UTD, I will be a junior, I will have my own place, I will have a large chunk of my debt paid off, I will be working and above all else, I will be happy. No...content. I don't need to be happy at 27. I will settle for content while I work my way back out of this pit of suffering and anxiety. It's all I can ask for right now.

So what, of all of that, have I accomplished? What has changed? If I were to go back to December 2009 itself (when "this time next year" occurred), I would have probably written a miserable, sad-sack entry. Though I had finally finished my Associates Degree at my community college and been accepted to UTD (to start in the Spring 2010 semester), I did not have my own place, nor did I have any large amount of debt paid off. I was, indeed, working but I was also having some major issues in a relationship I was in that we were not calling a relationship. (I referred to him at times, as my associate, my comrade, and my muchacho.) All in all, I was generally unhappy.

Nearly 6 months has passed since then...and what's different now? I've finished my first semester at UTD and loved it. I've got plans in motion to get my own place within the next month. I've paid off a decent amount of debt (decent for a student who can only work 3 days a week and had to make a living and pay debt from that money). I've been at my job at the pub for over a year. And now, my relationship is an official, happy, warm and wonderful relationship. A real one.

In November, I will be 28. I will be one class short of being a senior and I will be hopefully interning with research professors at school. I will still be working 30 hours a week but taking 13 or 14 hours at school instead of my usual 9 or 10. I will be exhausted but I think I will be happy. I like being busy. Its when I have all this free time that I go nuts and get lazy.

2009 was a huge rollercoaster of ups and downs. 2010 so far? Pretty awesome. And I'm hoping it will continue to get better. I think that it will.